More more more.... (vent. not for the kids to read, please)

Medical bills. I'm so tired of medical bills. If I'd just keep my mouth shut, they wouldn't exist. Neither would the debt. (yeah, I might be terribly sick or deformed from it but still) I'm NOT intentionally incurring medical bill after medical bill. I HATE going to the doctor. I HATE having illnesses that drag me in there. I feel guilty about it every time. That's a major part of my ongoing depression/anxiety: How long before the next bill hits? How long before the next illness costs an arm and a leg? This morning, before I was brought back for my MRI, I was handed a bill. Due "up front" was $165 of $827. *sigh* Great. Heated up the credit card AGAIN, and will be begging yet another billing department to settle for $25mo payments. And to top it all off, the mortgage company calls tonight. It hasn't been paid yet, but we're in the grace period. DUH. I know that. It's how it had to go this month, if everything was to get paid "on time". GRACE period....in other words, you're being kind enough to give me an extra couple weeks to get the payment in without harassing me. So don't harass me. I'm so fed up with money. Anything to do with it. I have to sit here tonight and figure out if/which bills need to be shuffled yet again. If these bills would change due dates like the paychecks did, it wouldn't be so bad. Every 4 weeks. Not this 26-32 day billing periods, depending on how many days are in the month, the month before, the next month, and if Mars is in retrograde.

I'm in a bad mood. I have to pay bills, budget for groceries and gas, and try to stay sane through it all. And hope that my MRI comes back soon, because I'm stressing over that too. Am I dizzy because something triggered a malformation? Or am I going to have to deal with a tumor or something? Or was it all just a fluke, and I've wasted yet more of my dh's hard earned money?

If I'm not around (online or otherwise) don't take it personally. I'll be trying to keep my bad mood to myself. (or at least what I didn't leave here.) I've got so much more to vent about, but much of it is TMI for the masses.