Shoulda Coulda Woulda

Kind of says a lot about what's been on my mind.

I'm supposed to be cutting back on the number of things I schedule. I like to get out of the house though. But not much is getting done. Not with the house, not with dd's school work, not the bills/budget (although I get to those at the very last minute), and not my working out thing I wanted to be all "totally into" by now. So I shoulda said no more extra stuff. I coulda done stuff after my "chores" were done. But I woulda gone out of my mind. :-P

I'm not doing terrible with the whole weight loss thing. Just not doing as much as I'd like to be doing. Part of it is that I'm not looking at everything I do as a work out. But it really is. Like the 2 hours of yard work I did today. Totally counts as a workout! (Especially digging up those 2 rose bushes.) I'm just used to the mind set that working out is walking or running, crunches, pilates, using weights and weight machines. The other thing that's bugging me is my other health issues. I'm trying to be careful not to overdo it, but part of me wonders if I can push a little further now? So maybe I shoulda ignored my "tireds" earlier and walked anyway. I coulda cleaned the house too.

I shoulda gone to college sooner. I coulda had a good job and no debt by now. I looked at what it's going to cost me to go back. About $60k. If I go RIGHT NOW. (not including transportation costs though, which could easily add another $20k over 4 years. Maybe more.) If I went "back then", it woulda cost about $20k less, and I wouldn't have had to take remedial classes. I did enroll at CSUB in '03. Took entrance exams, went to orientation, and started signing up for classes. But canceled everything when I learned dd was too old to attend their day care program and the public school had no afterschool program for kindergarten. So I guess I'm a college drop out then? Or maybe not since I didn't buy any books or go to any classes. Didn't pay any tuition either. Oh well.

Sorry for the downer post here. I'm just not in such a good mood at the moment.